May 2, 2024
Lost Diary
I'm allowing myself to be in this phase,
not fighting back against the disarray anymore.
Once, I pushed myself to protect this drama.
Now, I want myself back.
What could I do to release my pair of pains in the vein?
I hope your brain will realize that in life,
some things are rare and won't repeat again.
You won't get them back.
I'm sure you will realize your failure when you cannot justify your deeds.
When your journey was so long but you couldn't find the destiny,
then you'll remember my presence just because you've already lost your brain the moment you left me like nothing.
Your circumstances are worthless;
they don't talk about the possibilities of life.
The ashes of my curse won't haunt you,
but they're everywhere in the universe.
I just remind you that we've been together for so long.
These young lifetimes won't warranty for wrong deeds.
You kept promises on my head,
but they swallowed my whole body into your world.
I couldn't have been with you if I knew you would destroy my happiness for silly circumstances.
You allowed my hands to hold your hands,
knowing that you wouldn't make it succeed.
I just came to realize now that at least I was true.
And you will realize that your wound of this love won't heal until your last breath just because my ashes scattered in this air.